back to the beginning, again

It's a vicious cycle. That's the way I make it. I keep jumping ahead.. ready to orchestrate my life. And each time, the pieces in the puzzle disappear. I've discovered that I have no clue what my future holds. Each little guess I've had lately has become an impossibility. As a dreamer, I sit stunned.. and then my thoughts fly away again.

I think the point might be that I need to stop, sit in silence, and let God take over. Yet that's really hard for me, a dreamer. It's so hard to stop imagining what my own future could be.. when deep down I know that God probably has plans for me that are ten times better than my own.